Weight Loss and Insecurities

Today's message from: Daily Word for Weight Loss...

Goals

Maintaining a positive self-image helps me move forward in accomplishing my goal.
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Today as I dressed to go to the mass, I noticed that my clothes fit a little better. It made me feel good about myself, it was a nice feeling that I haven't experienced in a long time. And as petty as this is going to sound, I would've loved some positive feed back from my family.

I really don't expect it from my dear son, he's young, he's really not aware of this sort of thing, but it really would've been nice to hear something nice from my husband.

I complimented him on how he looked, how he smelled, and I do that all the time, especially when it's a dress up occasion, but, although I don't want to hear negative remarks, it feels almost the same, when he doesn't say a word either. Am I expecting too much?  I just don't know. It's hard to build your self-esteem when there isn't any support.

I just don't trust my own judgment when I look in the mirror. Do I look as bad as I think, or worse, I'll see myself the way I wish I looked, instead of the way everyone sees me?

I guess this is something I have to come to terms with. Learn to accept it, and learn to start trusting my judgment again.

Anyway, the mass was lovely, and the kids looked beautiful with their gowns on, no caps today.
I'm really looking forward to Friday.


Later on tonight, I will post my total for the day.

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PM Update: Today's total calories: 1,039.  A month ago I was having problems with overeating, now it's under eating. Never thought I'd see that day again. Neither one is good. Be careful what you wish for.