A Lovely Day:)

From: Daily Word for Weight Loss book.

Cherished Moments

I give thanks for cherished moments,

for they are gifts from God.

What a beautiful morning it was, cool and breezy. I took a 1.42 mile walk.

When I got home I did 10 minutes of light weights (2 lbs. to start). I have to force myself to start small, because I'm the type of person who skips over beginner's mode and charge right into the advance, and if I want to heal, I better stop that:)


Well, I will post my total for the day, later on.

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PM Update: Total for the day, 1,292 calories. Finished the book, "Where Are The Children?" This book was excellent. I didn't remember the story from way back in the 70's when I first read it, so it was a real pleasure to read. One of her best. I started on James Patterson's "The 9th. Judgment".

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Dear Husband:
I've written the way I feel about you on cards throughout the years.

Sometimes words on a card are not enough, so just in case you thought they were just that, words on a card, I asked Carly Simon for help. (It's the first song).

Happy 15th. Anniversary!

All those crazy nights when I cried myself to sleep
Now melodrama never makes me weep anymore
'cause I haven't got time for the pain
I haven't got room for the pain
I haven't the need for the pain
Not since I've known you


You showed me how, how to leave myself behind
How to turn down the noise in my mind
Now I haven't got time for the pain
I haven't got room for the pain
I haven't the need for the pain
Not since I've known you


Suffering was the only thing that made me feel I was alive
Thought that's just how much it cost to survive in this world
'til you showed me how, how to fill my heart with love
How to open up and drink in all that white light
Pouring down from the heaven
I haven't got time for the pain
I haven't got room for the pain
I haven't the need for the pain
Not since I've known you

Carly Simon/Jacob Brackman)

Changing Routine

I discovered a few things about myself today. Even when I give myself permission to relax, I can't.

I kept thinking that I should be doing some activity, or use the Shake Weight, even though my body wasn't into it.

Another thing is, that I think I may have started using the Shake Weight too soon. Although I've been careful not to do the over and behind the head exercises-for fear of aggravating my back, I have noticed my sciatica getting worse:(  I think it could be the shaking of the weight.

Another thing I've noticed is that I don't ever feel sore, even on the first few days with the Shake Weight, which makes me wonder if I'm wasting my time?

So, I've made the decision of switching from the Shake Weight to regular light weights for now.

I researched whether it's safe to workout with weights everyday, and the consensus seem to be, that it's okay if they are light weights and it's a good idea to mix the exercises around, use a different group of muscles, so I plan to do them Monday through Friday.  Short workouts to start, 10-15 min.

I still plan to post before and after pictures of my arms when I see some progress:)

Other than that, I did get some rest, but I'm looking forward to doing some activity tomorrow.

Total for the day, 1,247 calories. Wow! Seven weeks down! Woo-Hoo!

Rest & Relaxation

From: Daily Word for Weight Loss book.

A good weight-loss plan

takes careful planning of meals

and activities.

I think it's safe to say that the major events are done for the summer. It's been a very hectic month but every bit of it was worth it.

Since husband has the week off, he and DS are taking advantage, today they will be going to the beach again, which will give me a chance to "really" relax for a change. I don't have to cook because there is a ton of leftovers from yesterday.

I let the workouts slack these past several days, but I am so physically drained that I'm not going to feel guilty about it. I need to listen to my body. Give myself another 24 hours before restarting my workouts.

Planning my meals have helped me through the festivities, I know that if it wasn't for that, I would've gone crazy yesterday. The urge was there, which is a scary thought after 48 days. But the determination is there too. Thank God, it's what I've been praying for these last 3 years.

Today I will be a couch potato and actually enjoy being that, guilt-free:)

I will post my total later on.

Monday Wrap-Up

Well, it's been a wonderful day. My parents enjoyed their grandson, and vice a versa. And so did we! Everything went as planned and DS is over in the living room, not able to stand up because he ate too much:D

Food-wise: I was very good, and kept to my planned menu. The only time I struggled a bit was when I was serving the cake, but I didn't cave. I also didn't have the Hostess cakes and ice cream, instead I had a whole grain, sugar free Mocha muffin, topped with "So Delicious" vanilla soy yogurt. I must say, though, I didn't like the yogurt-at all. I won't be buying it again:(

Total for today: 1,418 calories. Thank "You" God, for this day.

A Special Day!

Today's message from: Daily Word for Weight Loss...

Inspired

I open my heart and my life

to divine inspiration.

My son is also, my inspiration! He is why I don't give up on myself. 

 

It's finally here, my baby boy's 14th. birthday:D

It seems like only yesterday I was chasing you around while you opened drawers and scattered my "unmentionables" all over the bedroom floor, when we cringed every time you pushed your little cart with your eyes closed-running around like a lunatic, LOL!  When you sat on your high chair and kept me company while I cooked and talked to you.

You've made me proud, made your father and I, proud. You've become a wonderful, intelligent, kind, considerate, and handsome young man.

May God always bless you and keep you that way:)

I wish you with all my heart a Happy Birthday, enjoy today, your family, your treats, and your summer vacation. 

I love you always, Mom:)

Happy Sunday

Today's message from: Daily Word for Weight Loss...

Praise God

With praise, I give thanks to God,

and I also celebrate the gift of life.

It was great to get some uninterrupted sleep last night. I feel refreshed and ready for the day.

I will do my workout in a little while, and then get dressed to go food shopping. I have a busy day ahead of me.

I plan to look for a substitute for my Jello sugar free puddings, I eat them often since I discovered the cinnamon rice pudding, even though I'm lactose intolerant.

I can get away with eating a slice of cheese, or a yogurt without too much stomach discomfort, but lately I've been feeling very bloated, and this time I know it isn't because of a binge. So hopefully I can find something non-dairy today. I'm trying to avoid too many carbs at night, since I've given up the 100 calorie-pretzels, and it's difficult to find a snack that is non salty, and low carb.

I'll see what I can find. Well, I will update later.

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8:23 PM:

I am exhausted! First chance I get to sit, all day. I did go shopping and found two possible substitutes for the pudding, Jello sugar free gelatin, and "So Delicious" soy yogurt.

They both have their pros and cons. After reading the label (at home) I discovered that the Jello is sweetened with aspartame, which is something I avoid. The pro is that it's low carb. With the yogurt, I love that it's dairy free and sweetened with Agave, "but" it is high in calories, 6 oz. cup is 150-160 cal. If it taste good, than that doesn't matter much. I'll see.
Total for today, 1,333 calories. Did not do the Shake Weight:(

Tomorrow's the big day. Signing off:)

Saturday Wrap-Up

Well, I am back from church, and it was a very nice mass as usual. Dear son made us proud once again.

I busied myself with housework earlier and put my pedometer on "all day" mode. So, I did 2.25 miles of activity within nine hours.

Since it's after 7 PM, my total calories for the day is, 1,268.

Tomorrow we will go food shopping early in the morning for Monday's lunch and dinner for my parents, bake son's birthday cake, decorate the place with party decorations, most probably do some more cleaning, wash clothes, cook, and probably some more stuff I can't remember right now, LOL! It never ends.

The good news is that I could actually sleep normal hours tonight, YAY! Husband is off for a whole week!

 Well, that's all I've got now, so I'm off to do a little reading before bed. I'm loving "Where Are The Children?" very suspenseful.  :)

Saturday Morning Thoughts

Today's message from: Daily Word for Weight Loss...

Never Too Late

Turning to God in faith,

I experience a healthier, new way of living.

I believe that, as long as you are living, there's no reason why you can't strive for whatever your goal may be. It's never too late and you're never too old.

What  exactly are my goals? Well, to heal my back and sciatica problems, to lose the weight I regained, to be a better person, more patient and understanding of others. 

I think they are all related. If I lose the weight, it might help me physically, if I heal first, I can work harder on losing the weight, and because of my struggles, I will have empathy for others. Faith is the only thing that will make all this happen.

Right now I need to conquer this tiredness, in the summer, the very hot days, husband's work shift changes anywhere from midnight to the wee hours, I can't go back to sleep until I hear that he got there, (no neighborhood is safe). Then it's difficult for me to get back to sleep. I keep saying to myself, this is not forever, but in the meantime, I just have no energy.

I'm changing the time that I do the upper body workout to the mornings, get that out of the way early. 

Tonight is Lector night for DS, I will go, if I can go through all the hours of sitting, throughout his graduation mass and ceremony, I can do this.

Well, I will write again later, and post my workout:)

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7:06 a.m. Did my 10 min. Shake Weight workout.

One of Those Days!

I'm feeling really tired today. I haven't slept well in several days, with husband leaving for work in the wee hours, I just haven't slept enough. I wish I could take a nap right now, but, that is not possible.

I dragged my body out the door this morning, and went for a walk. I even felt like turning back before I even reached the end of the block, LOL! But I didn't!  I managed a 1.08 mile walk. It's hot and humid and this type of weather always zaps my energy.

Food-wise I'm doing well, no big cravings, thank God.

I "must" make myself do the upper body workout now. I don't know where I'm going to get the energy, but I guess I will fake it 'til I make it! Whatever that means, LOL! Told you I  was tired!

I will post my total later on.

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PM Update: Total for the day, 1,237 calories. Didn't do the weights:(

T.G.I.F.

Today's message from: Daily Word for Weight Loss...

Commitment

Thank You, God, for the strength

and determination to be a winner.

Yesterday was my 44th. day on plan, yet, I'm still very cautious about it. I've failed so many times that I still feel insecure.  I'm so afraid of getting to that point where I get confident, or worse, cocky, and start getting relaxed in my ways.  Maybe that's a good thing.

I'm still learning and working on having faith in myself. I want this time to be different, permanent. Although I feel committed and determined, my body has betrayed me before. I can't wait until the days when I don't feel like I"m walking through this journey on eggshells.

It's Friday! Three more days before DS turns 14.  Definitely not a baby anymore:(
My plans for today is pretty much the same as always. I will make time to walk outside, and do my upper body workout, though, which I didn't yesterday.

I'm off to explore the Net and will be back later. Happy Friday!

Thursday Wrap-Up

It's been a long, gloomy day.  After doing my housework, I found myself restless. Watched a little TV,  checked my email, read some articles.
I was worried about the boys being on the beach with storm warnings going on.

Well, they are home, and I can finally relax and read my book.  It's after 7 PM, so the kitchen is closed!

My total calories: 1,262.  I still have time to do the Shake Weight, but I'm not sure if I will.

So, I'm signing off until tomorrow:)

Thursday Plans

Today's message from: Daily Word for Weight Loss...

Faith

My soul and my life are enriched

by my faith in God.

My faith is the only thing that has kept me going through the tough times. I'm still learning to appreciate my blessings by not complaining so much and being more patient with my family. Which if you knew me, you'd know that patience is "not" one of my virtues:D

I had a good day yesterday, did all my To Do list tasks, and enjoyed my alone-time. Watched the movie, "Shutter Island" on dvd.  I love mysteries, thrillers, psychological thrillers especially, as anyone can see with my choice of books, lol!  

One of my all time favorites is "The Sixth Sense" that one completely surprised me, and that's just what I love.  I also loved "Signs" not necessarily the corny aliens, but, the message of faith behind it. Every time I watch it, (and I've seen it many times) it makes me cry. I"m a sentimental fool, what can I say?  :)

Today DH is off, he and son are going to the beach. I'm not crazy about the beach when it's too hot, for several reasons, I don't like the sun, I burn easily, even with sunscreen, I don't wear a  bathing suit, and I can't swim, all the things they like.  My only joy at the beach is walking on the boardwalk or sand, with my headphones, that's a great workout, but I'm not ready to do that yet. So, I will have another "me day."

I haven't planned what to do yet, I'll just play it by ear after I do my regular housework. 

Well, I'm off. I will write again later.

Wednesday Plans

Today's message from: Daily Word for Weight Loss...

Enthusiasm

I am filled with enthusiasm, for the spirit of God

is active in me and through me.

And that's how I feel today as I start on week seven. Wow! I have been praying for this for almost three years and I've come to realize that it's not that your prayers are not being answered, or that God is not listening to you, I believe "He" has a plan for you, and it will happen when "He" thinks it's the right time not when you want it. So, I'm very grateful, Lord.

Tonight my husband and son will be going to a baseball game, so I have a lot of "me" time. What to do, what to do? :D  I'll probably just read my book, it's getting interesting, a real thriller, just the way I like it:)

Today I'm going to cook, chicken and rice for the boys, for me, I'll probably eat one of my home cooked entrees from the freezer, the brown rice with lentils, salad and a veggie pattie. 

Well, I'm off to do a little web surfing and will be back later on.

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PM Update: Total for today, 1,268 calories. Did my Shake Weight, and watched "Shutter Island" on dvd, while the boys were at the ball game. I put the pedometer on all day mode, and from 8:40 a.m. to 8:44 p.m. it showed a 2.94 mile distance. Not bad for indoor activity.

Tuesday Wrap-Up

Okay, so I just did my upper body workout with the Shake Weight. I did a 1.39 mile walk this morning, and I'm eating the last snack of the day.

Total: 1,212 calories. I just wasn't hungry today, I know it must be the heat.

I've changed my layout again! LOL! I can't help it! I get bored easily. But I found this yoga background and thought it was a great one for representing the "Improving my mind, body and spirit" description.

I'm hurting today though, I may have overdone it this morning, after the walk, I came home and baked three different muffins. Blueberry Oat Bran, Mocha Hazelnut, and Corn Muffins for my son. They are all in the freezer now. Then I did my regular chores. I'm going to take two tylenols and go to bed early.

Until tomorrow:)

Baking Day

Today's Message from Daily Word for Weight Loss...

Awakened Soul

My soul is awakened to God

and to the beauty of all life.

I love these morning messages. I look forward to them everyday now. 

My Southaven Farm muffin mixes arrived yesterday, I ordered the Ginger Spice, Oat Bran, and Mocha. I use a non dairy recipe for all of them from their website and add pumpkin, blueberries, hazelnuts, all kinds of goodies. I've tweaked and improvised with a few ingredients here and there through these last two years of using their mixes. 

At first, I didn't like them, the texture wasn't what I was looking for. I was ordering Vitamixes, from Vitalicious. I read about them on the Weight Watchers message boards. They are great, but it requires egg whites in their recipes and Southaven Farm mixes are whole grain and more versatile, no  sugar in the mixes, and you don't need eggs or oil,  that's what convinced me to switch. I can add my own sweetener of choice and experimented with them, now I swear by them. It's my sweet salvation as an after dinner dessert. They are expensive, but I rather spend the money on them then on regular sweets.

In other news: Not much going on actually :D  I'm going to get off the computer now, take a shower,  get dressed and go for a walk, before it gets warmer, it's 73 degrees right now.

When I come back, I'll tackle my To Do list.

OH! I almost forgot! I finished Robin McGraw's book, "What's Age Got To Do With It?"  On the positive, she motivated me to start the strength training program, and I liked the fashion tips she gave on how to dress for your height, shape, etc. I also liked what she had to say about her faith as a christian. The rest of it, I can only give my honest opinion, and that is that if I wanted to look as good as she does, I would need to have her kind of money. That said, I like her, I like the way she talks about her husband and boys, and the way she sees life in general.


I started on my next book already. "Where Are the Children?" by Mary Higgins Clark. This is one of the books I read back in the 70's, and luckily, I don't remember it, so it'll be much more enjoyable that way. Okay, now off I go! :)

I will write again later.

First Day of Summer:)

Today was suppose to be the official first day of summer vacation for son, yet, it didn't feel like it. Dear son volunteered his services at the school, (all day) to help some of the teachers pack up books, wash the preschool toys, clean up, etc.

Is there no end to this boy's generosity? I'm just kidding, I suspect that not only is he a generous soul, but he has the added bonus of being around a certain crush, LOL! He's going back tomorrow! :)

I've made an interesting observation today. For the past 2 weeks, I've actually had trouble eating enough calories, can you believe that?  Well, ever since yesterday, when I ate the two 100 calorie Hostess cakes with the ice cream cup, I have an appetite again. The type bordering on dangerous.
It's amazing what sweets does to my body. After 39 days of no sweets, it didn't even taste as good as I thought it would.

I'm going to "try" to skip the little cakes on my son's birthday next week. I've been doing too well to let sweets defeat me again.

Now that the graduation is over, I'm upping my calories a bit, I'm not in any hurry to lose this weight now, and I feel that slow is the best way to lose it and keep it off. I'll be eating more normal meals now, beans, whole grain pasta and rice.

I did my upper body workout, but didn't walk. It was too hot, as I write this, it's 86 degrees. I'll have to do it early in the morning tomorrow.

Well, that's about it for tonight. I will write my total calories in a little while. I'm off to do the dishes.

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Total calories for the day: 1,335.

Changes and Worries

Today's Daily Word for Weight Loss message...

Coping With Change

God is with me to guide, direct

and sustain me through all life's changes.

This is true, and I am experiencing changes already. With my son going to High School, becoming more independent, farther away from home, worries about his safety, I'm dreading when he starts dating, which is not too far away. As I get older, I find myself worrying about my husband's health and safety, more also. My own physical changes. The only way to cope is through God.

I want to take better care of myself because I want to be there for them. As a teen, I grew up in a tough neighborhood and I went to a tougher school, I must've had about five fights with other girls or group of girls in the first two years of Junior High School, and my mother wasn't always available, physically, for me, she was battling alcoholism, diabetes, and heart problems.  Her answer to all of this was to take me out of school. I was the one who pursued my GED and later Business School on my own.  I want to be there for my son if he ever needs me, both physically and emotionally.

Whew...all those thoughts triggered by a little morning message.

Changing the subject, my To Do list...

Housework

Upper body workout

Cook

Wash

Pay bills

Take a Walk (hopefully)

I will write again later...off to get some coffee.

PS: Happy First Day of Summer!

Special Sunday

Today is Father's Day and my husband's birthday. Although it will be just the three of us, we plan to make it as special as possible. All the things he enjoys.

Son will cook lunch for him, (DS has become quite a cook).
I have steaks marinating and will cook them for dinner (for the boys) I don't eat red meat.
Yesterday I baked his cake, white cake and chocolate fudge w/choc. chips frosting, and ice cream.
I didn't even "want" to taste the frosting, woo-hoo! I plan to have my 100 calorie Hostess cakes with ice cream.

Then, the gifts and whatever game he's interested in, Bingo, Millionaire dvd game, Boggle, or Scrabble.  He doesn't want to go out because he has to go to bed early, and get up at 11:00 pm to go to work at an earlier shift tonight.

This coming week, I have to finish cleaning, changing the curtains and get ready for son's birthday on Monday, the 28th.
Well, I will write my day's total later on tonight.

Today's message from: Daily Word for Weight Loss:

Focus

Centered in the presence of God, I focus on making

plans and carrying through with them.

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7:50 PM: It was a real good day today. I followed the message above, stayed focused and on plan. Total for today, 1,325 calories. Did not get a chance to do the upper body workout yesterday and today. I will tomorrow.

Friday & Saturday

What a beautiful, prideful, and tiring, long day it was yesterday:)

It started off with a morning mass, then a breakfast/award ceremony for the graduates.

Then back home at 12 p.m. to wait until the evening for the graduation itself.

Just saying that we are so very proud of our son, is not enough. My heart if filled with such pride and love for this boy. God Bless him always.

In between all that, I stuck to my planned menu, tracked and even did the Shake Weight.
What I don't understand about the Shake Weight dvd is that they keep referring to it as a 6 minute workout, but I've timed it twice and the whole workout comes out to 10. Now, what am I missing? But, actually, I don't mind at all.

As I mentioned before, I'm skipping the overhead exercise and replacing it with front chest shake, LOL! Sounds like a new dance! My aim is to do it daily, as long as I don't feel any discomfort. Ten minutes is very doable:)

Yesterday's message from Daily Word for Weight Loss was...

In the Silence

In the silence, God waits for me.

Total calories for yesterday: 1,235.

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Today's Plans

Clean up the living room, cook, go shopping for a few dinner items in between. 

I will write my day's total later.

Saturday message:

Resilient Spirit

I am resilient, because God's spirit within me

gives me great flexibility.

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PM Update: Total for the day, 1,131.
Walked 1 mile.

The Shake Weight ~ Revisited

Reading Robin's book has motivated me to start an upper body strength training regimen. I've been wanting to do this for awhile now, but was afraid to aggravate my back problems.  Now that I can walk a little more than I could a month ago, I feel that I'm ready to try.

Before I hurt my back, I was doing five pound weights with Tammi Lee Webb and Denise Austin videos.  Now I will have to start from scratch, beginners mode. I'm looking for workouts that are short, but effective.

Several weeks ago, I wrote an entry about the new Shake Weight gadget. I've read a lot of good reviews on it.  I wanted to order it, but I read one particular review by a person who hurt themself following one of the workouts in the Shake Weight dvd and had to go to a chiropractor.
I chickened out, and decided not to order. I thought, someday, when I'm better.

Well, someday came today, LOL! I was in Rite Aid looking for batteries when I come face to gadget with it. I couldn't resist, I bought it.

I just finished my first 6 minute workout, (it comes with a dvd) I skipped the one where you over extend your arms over and behind your head, I'm not taking any chances right now.
I plan to take before and after pictures of my arms, but will not post them unless I see progress. I'm excited about this, We'll see.

My walk today, 1.57 miles.
I will post my total calories later.

Image from: Amazon 

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PM Update: Total calories for today, 1,140.

Knowledge is Power

I'm liking the book already, "What's Age Got To Do With It" by Robin McGraw. She covers everything, exercise, nutrition, skin, hormones, hair, makeup, fashion and faith.

I thought I was pretty knowledgeable about sugar and perimenopause already, but she has enlightened me with a few things I didn't know or I should say, she's written it in a way that I can understand it better.

Take sugar for instance:
"too much sugar (or other high glycemic index carbohydrates like pasta, white rice, white bread, and potatoes) causes a spike in insulin, which is the hormone that promotes the transfer of glucose (sugar) from the blood into muscles and other tissues, after years and years of these insulin spikes, the body finally becomes resistant to the effects of insulin, thus the term "insulin resistance." So instead of that sugar being converted into energy, the body stores it as fat, usually around the waistline."  
Explained by Jim Hrncir, RPH

Boy, does that ring a bell for me. All these years of sugar binges, no wonder I was feeling like all my 20 plus pounds was gathered in the waist and stomach.  I have to work very hard on weening myself off sugar for good. I've been doing that so far, since I started tracking my calories. I haven't had any cookies, cakes, candies or chocolates.  I need to continue this way.

Today I have more of the same on my To Do list...
Finish the living room and kitchen.
I'm going to "make" myself take a walk, early in the morning and get that out of the way.
I'll be going to bed tonight with curlers on, LOL! I haven't done that in "years!"

Today's message from: Daily Word for Weight Loss...

Turning Point

At every turning point, God is with me

as my sure and steady guide.

Gratitude ~ At The End of the Day

It's been a busy and tough day. Both on the body and stomach. I don't know where I got this new found self-discipline, but I am so grateful for it, today could've been a binger.

I've come across a few articles that recommend creating a Gratitude Journal. They say it can relief stress, and help you acquire a positive attitude. So, me-being willing to try different things, decided to do just that.
I created a "Five Things I'm Grateful For Today" blog.
One of the reasons I started a blog in the first place, was to help me adapt a positive outlook towards life, no matter what challenges and struggles I may be going through. So, why not?

It's hard to go to bed complaining when you have to stop and think of five things you're grateful for today:)

Well, I am off to put on my Tens Unit and heated pad for awhile, then I will update on my total for the day.

***

PM Update: Total for today, 1,240.

Five Weeks Down

I must "humbly" say, I'm proud of myself:) I didn't think I would make it this long. Thank "You" Lord.

I finished the book yesterday, "Dancing in the Dark" by Carol Higgins Clark. It was a good story with an unexpected ending, but, I didn't find it suspenseful, not the page-turner I crave for, LOL! What can I say? I'm a gal who needs adventure in her life!

I plan to start on another today. I thought I'd take a break and read something totally different. I chose, "What's Age Got To Do With It" by Robin McGraw.

Today is the last day of classes for son, I originally thought it was tomorrow, so, he's thrilled:)
No summer reading or projects for the first time in his school-year-life.

I'm off to do a little web surfing, then I hit my To Do list.
Until later.

Today's message from: Daily Word for Weight Loss...

Breath of Life

As I breathe deeply and evenly, 

the life of God within me 

responds as refreshing energy.

My Day...So Far

I'm taking a little time off right now to finally sit and relax. My body is achy.

I accomplished a lot, pretty much all I set out to do this morning. It was a beautiful day. I walked 1.51 miles when I went to get son's peanut butter, Smucker's Natural with no hydrogenated oils or sugar.  Thank goodness he's into healthy eating now, growing up, he gave me such problems, what a picky eater he was. Now he tries everything-at least once:)

My books arrived today, 3 of the 4, "Where Are The Children", "A Cry in the Night", and "Pretend You Don't See Her" all by Mary Higgins Clark. They are in very good condition for used books, although the first one I mentioned was a former library copy, but still in tact. It made my day...
...the things that make me happy:)

Food-wise, it's been a hungry one once again. I think this happens when I get overly tired. Just two more days, and then I'll be able to eat more normal dinners.

Well, I will come back here a little later and post my total.

***

PM Update: Total calories for today, 1,173.

Still Commited!

I woke up this morning, more eager than ever! What's going on? LOL! I really want to succeed this time. I don't know which is it that's helping me, determination or self-discipline? Or are both intertwined? Can you have one without the other? I'm not sure.

After today, it will be my fifth week, "my fifth week!" I read the articles I added on this blog below, about self esteem, and I will try to do the exercises they suggest. Especially, stopping the negative self-talk and treating my body with respect.

I've been writing my feelings first before reading the daily message, and it seem to coincide with the way I'm feeling. I take that as a sign, that I'm going in the right direction.

Today's message from: Daily Word for Weight Loss...

Blessing My Body

Relaxing in the presence of God,

I bless my body.

Today's plans, much of the same as yesterday...

House chores, cooking, I might have to go to the store to get son some healthier peanut butter, and exchange the one he bought yesterday, and wait for the meter man.

I will update later.

Learning Along the Way

Blogger has finally added new templates, wheeee!! LOL! My favorite pass time:)

I've been busy all morning, wrapping birthday, anniversary and Father's Day gifts. I decided that I need to get DS a few more things, thank goodness I still have two weeks before his birthday.

I just took a coffee break to write the message for today, from: Daily Word for Weight Loss....

Eating Right

Eating in healthy, nourishing ways energizes me

with youthful exuberance.

That's a nice one,  just what I needed to read today. True, I was feeling a bit insecure yesterday, alone, and perhaps emotional because of all the changes coming my way. This morning I realized that I've been looking for validation from others, when it should come from within me.

I will continue to rely on the Lord, to guide me, and I will focus on how I feel about myself. I plan to research this topic later on when I have free time again. Self-esteem is definitely, something I have to work on.

Well, I'm off to continue cleaning. I will be back later.

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7:22 PM: A long and tiring day. I'm headed for bed early tonight. 

I found a few articles regarding self esteem and self confidence. I added the links at the end of this blog. I'll go over them tomorrow.  

My total calories for today is 1,197. I'm off to read a little, and then to sleep.  Thank "You" Lord, for another good day.

Weight Loss and Insecurities

Today's message from: Daily Word for Weight Loss...

Goals

Maintaining a positive self-image helps me move forward in accomplishing my goal.
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Today as I dressed to go to the mass, I noticed that my clothes fit a little better. It made me feel good about myself, it was a nice feeling that I haven't experienced in a long time. And as petty as this is going to sound, I would've loved some positive feed back from my family.

I really don't expect it from my dear son, he's young, he's really not aware of this sort of thing, but it really would've been nice to hear something nice from my husband.

I complimented him on how he looked, how he smelled, and I do that all the time, especially when it's a dress up occasion, but, although I don't want to hear negative remarks, it feels almost the same, when he doesn't say a word either. Am I expecting too much?  I just don't know. It's hard to build your self-esteem when there isn't any support.

I just don't trust my own judgment when I look in the mirror. Do I look as bad as I think, or worse, I'll see myself the way I wish I looked, instead of the way everyone sees me?

I guess this is something I have to come to terms with. Learn to accept it, and learn to start trusting my judgment again.

Anyway, the mass was lovely, and the kids looked beautiful with their gowns on, no caps today.
I'm really looking forward to Friday.


Later on tonight, I will post my total for the day.

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PM Update: Today's total calories: 1,039.  A month ago I was having problems with overeating, now it's under eating. Never thought I'd see that day again. Neither one is good. Be careful what you wish for.

Special Mass and Future Plans

A brand new week, and five days left for son's graduation.
Today is the special graduation mass, I will take two Tylenols for my achy body, and be there with bells on:)

I have my work cut out for me this week, I have to finish the big cleaning project in the house, wrap presents, bake cakes, etc. All special events will take place between the 18th. to the end of the month.

Yesterday was a tough day, food-wise. I woke up hungry and I went to bed hungry. But I've come a long way so far, and I'm not going to mess it up before Friday.  Discipline is the "key".

In other news, I came across a website where they have old books, https://www.alibris.com/ and I found the Mary Higgins Clark book I was looking for, in large print, "Where Are the Children?" it's in used/good condition, couldn't find a new copy.

Along with three other of her books, "A Cry in the Night", "Pretend You Don’t See Her", and "You Belong To Me".
I’ve been looking for "A Stranger is Watching" but I can’t find a copy in large print.  I'm set for summer reading:)

Well, I will go now and make some coffee for DH and son, and have another cup for myself. We all have different coffee preferences, I like Folgers Instant in the mornings, husband likes brewed, and son gets decaf, brewed.

I will update later, on my day.

Saturday Progress Report

Today I woke up "hungry" which is uncommon for me. I'm not a breakfast person, I usually have two light toasts, light margarine and coffee, early in the morning, three hours later I have a slice of whole wheat bread with a PepperJack, veggie cheese slice or a veggie link, and coffee. That's my breakfast.

I have been eating very low calorie foods for dinner, if you can call it dinner, a meat substitute and veggies or salad, but once son's graduation is over,  I plan to eat more normal meals, add some whole grain pasta and rice a few times a week.

Lately my desserts and snacks are sugar free Southaven Farm muffins (whole grain), sugar free Jello puddings and fruits. This is, apparently. helping with the sugar cravings. So, I will leave, as is. Eliminating the salty pretzels has been another great help. I don't miss it anymore.  I'm happy with my progress thus far:)


Today's message from: Daily Word for Weight Loss,

Comfort

"God sustains me and comforts me,

satisfying the hunger of my soul".

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PM Update: I knew it was going to be a tough day when I woke up hungry, but I made it through. Total for the day, 1,292 calories.

T.G.I.F. and Milestone

It's hard to believe that as of yesterday,  I've been on plan for 30 days! I consider that another milestone. I don't remember the last time I stuck to it that long, it has to be years. I'm proud of me:)

As much as I try just to focus on one day at a time, I keep dreading the end of the 100 days. In the past, not having a direction has led to failure. So I've decided to continue in phases. Phase 2 being the second set of 100 days, until hopefully I can get through a whole year of tracking my food.

This "tracking-no matter what" challenge is what has kept me from bingeing. Just knowing that I will have to write my binge calories here, has kept me sane so far.

Now that I have a long term plan, I can stop agonizing about it. I will not weigh myself though, this time I'm going by my clothes, not the scale. I might at the end of the 100 days. Time will tell.

Today DS is off from school. On Sunday we all have to attend a special mass for the graduates. Then the rest of his school week, Monday - Thursday is going to be half days. Friday is the big event. I can't wait.

Today's plan, nothing out of the ordinary, housework, cooking, and if I have time, I'll walk.
I will update my calories later on in the evening.

Today's message from the "Daily Word for Weight Loss" is...

"I express my true self by being loving and wise,

and by using good judgement."

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7:44 PM: Total for today, 1,119 calories. 

Miles walked: 1.36. 
PS: I ate a Jello sugar free Cinnamon Roll pudding today, boy...what a disappointment! Didn't taste anything like a Cinnamon Roll...Duh-me! :)

Productive Day

Oh my goodness, what a tiring day. I have no energy and I'm so sleepy, LOL!

I did everything (except the curtains) in my To Do list. Went shopping and walked a total of 1.44 miles, although it felt like much more.

I have exactly 7 days left for son's graduation. I'm extremely excited for him, and I plan to take plenty of pictures.  As for me, these next seven days I'm going to stick to fruits and vegetables so that I can get rid of some "more" of this stomach by then.

Although I bought an outfit already for that day, today while rummaging through my closet, I found a new pair of pants with tags and all, that was a size bigger than I was when I reached goal, I tried them on today and they fit but are a bit snug in the waist. Starting today, I'm aiming to try them on in 7 days to see if they will fit any better, if they do, I'll wear those instead.

Well, it's too early to post my total, so I will come back later on.

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7:36 PM: Total for the day, 1,189 calories.

Thursday Thoughts

"As each new day dawns,
I make a healthy new start".

From: Daily Word for Weight Loss

Nice words to start the day with. 

I woke up tired today, had a restless sleep. I had a dream that an intruder was hiding in the house. I get those occasionally, one of my worst fears, asleep or awake.  

Anyway, my To Do list for today is...

1. House Chores

2. Take up the hem of my new pants

3. Wash several pairs of  curtains

4. Cook

5.  And go shopping for a my mother's gift to DH.

Not necessarily in that order. I anticipate a lot of walking today. 

I'm off to start my day. I'll post my update later.

Rainy Wednesday Afternoon

So, I went out this morning as planned and decided to take a walk to the Hallmark store and buy a gift for son's teacher.  There weren't many choices, just the usual plaques and mugs, and I wanted to get her something useful and a little different.

After searching a bit, I found a photo frame, the frame itself is wooden and made to look like rulers, and it has a figurine of a stack of text books with an apple on top, attached to the bottom-right of the frame.
By George, I found an image at amazon:)  Although, they charged me more at Hallmark:(

Just thought it was a cute gift from my son, to say thank you. He will choose the card himself.

Anyway, total walk for today, 1.64 miles.

As I was cleaning my book shelf, I found a book that I bought back in January of this year. I've been struggling so much that I gave up on it after a few weeks and forgot about it.  I think it's time to start using it again. It's called, "Daily Word for Weight Loss" by Colleen Zuck and Elaine Meyer. It's like a Devotional, only it has little stories from people's experience with weight loss. I thought I'd start today.

Today's message is about "Guidance from our creator" which coincides with what I wrote earlier this morning. I will take that as a sign.

Obviously, I can't write here what the book says, I don't want to get sued, lol!  But I will write the little quote under the title, to guide me through each day. Today's quote:   

 "God guides me in knowing what is absolutely best for me in losing weight".

Book image from: Barnes and Noble.

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Well, I will update on my total calories later on.

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PM Update: Total for today, 1,213 calories.

Four Weeks Down:)

Wow! I didn't think I could make it through the first week, and yesterday made four. The mind is a powerful thing, especially when you stop putting pressure on yourself .  I just want to acknowledge the Lord, thank "You" God, for guiding me these past 28 days, and I will "try" to continue focusing on a day at a time. I don't want to say or do anything to jinx myself.

I had planned to stay home today, but once again, I will have to interrupt my cleaning project to buy some tuna fish and school snacks for son, which I forgot yesterday. But, this is a good thing. So far my knee feels better today, I might be able to walk a little more than yesterday.

Well, I will post my miles and calories later.

WOW! My Fourth Post Today:)

I went to the grocery store today, total walk, 0.88 of a mile. I was in a lot of discomfort, especially my left knee, so I didn't want to push it by going anywhere else.

I bought some salad stuff, lettuce, tomatoes, and some bananas for the boys, Coffee-Mate and some more Jello puddings, this time I found, sugar free, Original Rice Pudding (w/out cinnamon) and a sugar free, Cinnamon Roll Pudding. WOO-HOO! Can't wait to taste that one, LOL!  It is so nice to be able to enjoy these treats without eating the whole 6 pack. Thank "You" so much, Lord. That's progress!

I finally feel good about the look of my blog, well, at least until autumn:) Now when I look at the veggies on the blog header, I get motivated.

I've finished all my birthday gift shopping, so that's out of the way. The real test will come when I bake the cakes. Two of them this month. I'll have to find a way to keep my mouth accupied so that I don't start eating the frosting-always a trigger for me. Hmmm...maybe some sugar free gum?

Well, I will come back here for the last time today, later, to post my total. Off to make some coffee, I'm in the mood for some Coffee-Mate:)

Jello-image from: Walmart 

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PM: Update: Total for today, 1,173calories.

New Outlook

I changed the layout and title of this blog to "Getting Healthy" One day at a time. I know it sounds more like a cliché and definitely not the most original title, but it's the way I feel and the way I'm going about it this time. Although, I wish I could change the photo on the header, who are these people anyway? LOL!

After Sunday's fitting room mirror shocker, I am determined more than ever to continue sticking to my eating plan.

Today, although I'll be busy cleaning, I'm going to take some time to walk and buy a few more fruits and vegetables. They go fast in this household, which is a good thing.

I will post again later with my total for the day.

Living In The Moment

I was searching the web as I do every morning, looking for inspirational articles, and I came across this article about living in the moment, by Harriet Meyerson.  What she says makes a lot of sense to me.

It's about appreciating what you have now, not waiting for something or someone in anticipation of feeling happy and/or satisfied.

If you spend your days worrying about the future or stuck on the past, how can you live in the moment? Makes sense to me. Here's the article...

Feel Happy Every Day by Living in the Moment

 By Harriet Meyerson

Many people are so concerned with adding days to their life that they forget to add life to their days.

If you have ever found yourself at home thinking about what you need to do at work, or at work thinking about things happening in your personal life, you know how distracting it is. Living in the moment means you are totally immersed in an experience. 

The past is history.
The future is a mystery.
The only time we really have is now - just this moment.

MAGICAL MOMENTS
Think back on the events in your life that you vividly remember. Those are the events where you were living in the moment. Even though years have passed, you can still remember the details.

OUR WEDDING DAY
Over thirty-six years have passed since my wedding day, and I can still picture myself as a young bride dressed in a beautiful white gown. I can still hear our "special song" and feel the immense joy I felt then as I walked down the aisle toward my soon-to-be husband.

THE DAY I CONQUERED THE MOUNTAIN
I vividly remember my first ski trip when, after taking my first chairlift ride up the mountain, I didn't know how I would ever get down. I was terrified! As I slowly skied down the slope with my instructor, I was so frightened I was shaking, but I was also experiencing the thrill of the moment. I will always remember the incredible feeling I experienced as I finally reached the bottom - conquering my first ski slope.

EVERY DAY MOMENTS
Living in the moment is easy during special times in your life. However, most days don't contain special events, and unless you learn to live in the moment, worry, fear, resentments or other distractions will rob you of your life.

Wayne Dyer in his many books talks about the compulsion some people have of always wanting more before they can be happy - more money, a better house, a fancier car, a better spouse, etc. Those people never get to a place of arriving - or enjoying the moment.

AS GOOD AS IT GETS…
Steve Strauss, a professional speaker and personal coach at www.strausUSA.com suggests that you ask yourself … "What if this is as good as it gets?"

Steve said, "While driving down a quiet country highway, in the clear winter sunlight, that question popped into my mind. My first reaction was to see that I had spent a huge part of my life fantasizing about the future, when things would get "better".

"When I let go of requiring that the future be any certain way - Poof! Suddenly I became content with what I had now."

"That was a shock because I had always assumed a better future, which implies that there is something wrong with now. To realize that right now is great has been tremendously freeing. It has led to gratitude and a surge of energy and strength."

ACTIVITIES TO PRACTICE LIVING IN THE MOMENT

Living in the moment takes practice because you are used to being distracted. Make a special effort to consciously practice being totally immersed in what you are doing for some time every day. Here are some ideas to get you started.

TAKE A BUBBLE BATH 
Play some soft music. Relax and feel the warmth of the water. Just think of how you are enjoying the moment.

DRIVE A DIFFERENT ROUTE TO WORK 
Get off the highway, and take the city streets to work. As you drive, notice the trees and houses as you pass through different neighborhoods. Going a different way will also help you concentrate on your surroundings.

EAT A GOURMET MEAL AT A FANCY RESTAURANT 
Set aside money for your special dinner so that you won't feel guilty about spending the money. You will experience living in the moment as you enjoy the total experience of the atmosphere, the service, the people you are with, and the delicious food.

PLAY A SPORT SUCH AS TENNIS 
You have to concentrate and be aware of everything that is happening at the moment. There isn't time to lament over the last shot because another one is coming right back at you.

DANCE TO YOUR FAVORITE MUSIC 
You will become immersed in the music as your body moves to it, and you will begin to feel vibrant and alive.

PLAY CARD GAMES 
When you play games such as bridge or poker, you have to concentrate or you risk losing the game.

ENJOY A CREATIVE HOBBY 
Painting, woodwork, or crafts will absorb all your attention as you focus on your creation.

TAKE A VACATION 

Vacations are rejuvenating and energizing because you are physically away from the day-to-day cares of living and totally immersed in sight seeing or other vacation activities.

LOOK AT THE FUNNY SIDE OF LIFE 
Notice how people who are always preoccupied with worry, resentment or other things don't usually have a sense of humor. Having a sense of humor requires living in the moment because you have to look all around for the funny things that are happening.

KEEP A JOURNAL 
At the end of each day, write about the moments when you were totally present. Every week review your journal. Doing this, will encourage you to concentrate on what you are doing. Eventually, living in the moment will become a habit that will add happiness, enthusiasm, and vitality to your days.

Here's a direct link to the page, Positive Path Network. Something to think about.

Monday Wrap-Up

I don't have much to post here today. It was a regular, uneventful day. Did my house chores, cooked and washed. No outside walking. Food was much better than yesterday, stuck to my planned menu.
Total calories for today, 1,208.

I still haven't had any out of control cravings, thank God, so I must be doing something right. I am apprehensive about the upcoming birthdays, though. I'd like to enjoy some cake and ice cream along with the boys but portion control is not my specialty. I have a plan though, I've done this before on Thanksgiving. Two packs of 100 calorie Hostess mini cakes with those 3 oz. cup of ice cream, (total, 290 calories). That way I don't feel deprived, or left out, LOL!

Well, I'm off to read a bit before going to bed and to set up the dvd recorder for "Lie to Me".
Until tomorrow.

Mall Nightmare!

I will "never" go to the mall on a Sunday again!  The lines for the cashier, fitting room and rest rooms were outrageous.  Not to mention waiting for the bus, oh my gosh. I was there (at the mall) for 3 hours, walking, standing, and waiting. But, it's over and done.

I tell you, there is nothing like the harsh reality of a fitting room mirror to motivate you. It was worse than I thought. I had to try on clothes in 3 different sizes, very disheartening, but as I'm waiting there in line, I made up my mind that I will not stay this way, I am more determined now to lose this weight. I don't care how long it will take, but I have to do this.

I found a simple outfit, I was aiming for a nice suit, but they were so heavy looking for a June Graduation, so, I settled for a nice pair of gray slacks, gray camisole, and a semi-short sleeve, thin, blazer-type shirt, one in black and the other in red, depending on the weather that day. I already have the shoes and a matching, small, shoulder bag, that's it, I'm done.

Now I will concentrate on my dear son, and making it a special day for him and the family.

In other news, I got my walk in, 1.62 miles in the mall, this time I made sure I was looking at the miles and not the time, LOL!

Well, I will post my total in a little while, I still have a planned snack before 7.

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7:57 PM: I've eaten a ridiculously low amount of calories today, only because I wasn't hungry and skipped lunch after the mall, I plan to eat a lot better tomorrow.

Total: 1,004 calories.

This Is It...

...No turning back!  I will be going to the mall to buy "the" outfit.  Why do I feel like I'm going for a root canal?

It's hot and muggy almost 80 degrees, and it's only 8:00 a.m. Yuck! I don't like these humid days, they make me feel rundown.

This week I might not be able to go walking as usual, I have a big clean up to do in the house for the coming events, and I have to do it little by little, so I plan to put the pedometer on "all day" mode and track my miles that way.

Yesterday was another good eating day, however, I noticed that I was unusually bloat-y today, then I remembered that I've been eating pickles for the last few days, now I know for sure that salt and I, just can't go together:(

Well, I will post more later on today.

Saturday Thoughts

Yesterday was a super busy day. So busy that I wasn't thinking about food, which is a biggie for me.
I am cautiously pleased with the low calories I've been consuming lately. Cautiously, because I don't want to get used to doing that for a few reasons.

I've read that eating "under"  1,200 calories is not safe because it's not enough to get the nutrients your body needs. And it might actually slow down your metabolism. So I've actually been trying to eat more, these last few days.

And the other reason is, I don't want to adapt a "diet" mentality, I want to be able to live with my plan for the rest of my life, which will mean going over at times. I am familiar with anorexia, and I don't ever want to go that route again. For me, it's a thin line between, eating healthy but less, and dieting. My eating has been out of whack for so long that it's hard to distinguish the two.

I haven't had any out of control cravings, and I'm trying to put into perspective what the reasons may be.

Let's see, I stopped eating the 100 Calorie pretzels, I haven't had any regular sweets, chocolate, cookies, cakes, etc., I've been eating 100% whole wheat bread, and virtually no pasta or rice.  I've noticed that even eating the brown rice and whole wheat pastas, trigger me. I can't figure that out, it's supposed to do just the opposite.  I suppose it could be one or all of the reasons I mentioned. Whatever it is, I will continue to eat this way for now.  I will not look a gift horse in the mouth:D

Today we are going to visit my parents. Unfortunately, I can't stay as long as I used to since it's so hard for me to sit for several hours with my physical problems, but I'm looking forward to having them over on son's birthday.

I'm off to wake up son, he usually wakes up very early but yesterday he went to a school dance, his second, and went to bed shortly after, besides, I can't wait to hear all about it. LOL!

I will post my total later.

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PM Update: Total for the day, 1,213calories.

Friday Plans

I can't believe how quickly the days go by, it's downright scary:(

So far this week, I have said no to "Chinese Food" which I love, and my husband's homemade "Pizza".

Those are two little victories to be proud of. I'm not always going to deprive myself of these favorites, just until after my son's graduation, then I can relax a little and eat much more normal foods. Right now I'm sticking to vegetables and salads in place of pasta and rice.

I put off getting my graduation day outfit until next week. I can't keep procrastinating, this is it, like it or not, I have to face that evil department store mirror.

I'm not sure what my plans are for today, I can't leave the house until the UPS guy gets here. I'm expecting  my husband's birthday gift, and I have to make sure he doesn't open the door, the box might have a picture or name of what's in it, and I want him to be surprised. Unfortunately, I don't want to take a chance in saying what it is yet:)

Well, I will write again, later on. DH is about to leave and I have to lock up.

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7:22 PM: Total for today, 1,119 calories.  Again, not hungry today. Very uncommon.

Thursday Doings

Well, another one of those painful days for me physically. I couldn't even go out walking. The hot, humid weather didn't help either.

I waited for DH to come out of work and asked him to take me to the supermarket, there he did the regular household shopping, and I did my mom's shopping and my diet-friendly foods. I was pretty surprised when I came home and my pedometer read 2.12 miles, so I guess I did walk after all today.

A few weeks ago, I received an email from Roku saying that they were upgrading the Netflix software by the end of May. Here is the demo...The New Netflix Experience from Roku.


So, I was pretty bummed when I saw that my hubby's Roku was upgraded today, but not mine, LOL! So, I took matters into my own hands and went to settings and updated it myself, (patience is not my strong suit) It worked! So, I'm a happy camper, I love my Roku:)

Well, I think I'll go explore my new Netflix, and then read a little bit before going to bed.

I will post my total for the day later on tonight.

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PM Update: Total for today, 1,164 calories.
Correction: I just looked at the pedometer again, and it was 0.96 miles, not 2.12. I must've been looking at the time, LOL! Embarrassing.

Three Weeks Down

Wow...I just can't believe I've been on plan for 21 days. I'm very grateful to God.

I've made challenges before, but the minute I gave myself permission to be human, "imperfect" (tracking no matter what) my outlook changed. I feel like I found new freedom, if that makes any sense. This weight loss journey is 99% mental for me.

I still don't see a big change physically, but I feel it, in my stomach especially. I have two weeks left for son's graduation, that helps keep me going also. I do pray that losing some weight will help with the physical pain that I struggle with daily. Only time will tell.

Today I am taking off from walking. I'm just concentrating on my housework. And, I started a new book last night, "Dancing in the Dark" by Mary Jane Clark, yep, this is Mary Higgins Clark's daughter:)  First time and first book for me.

Well, I will post my total later on in the evening. Time for another cup of coffee.

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PM Update: Total for today, 1,304 calories.